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March 28th, 2008
11:46 am - Instant Bootleg
This is my new song, as played last night. Note the loud crowd noise -- especially appropriate as the song is basically about taking the fact that people don't listen to/like me personally (or not). What you can't hear on the recording (though a giggle near the recording device was probably inspired by it) was the opening act Dark Oz and his girlfriend dangerously approaching having Mad Hippie Sex on the dancefloor right in front of me. Not what my music is intended to inspire, but I'm glad when people are having a good time. Thanks to ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) buz for coming to the gig & helping even though he was sick, buying me the recorder for Xmas, and recording the set! Also to MY MOM katmulkey (welcome to LJ Mom!) for helping with the merch and being the best.
Five people came to see me, including my mom and Buz. I never thought it was possible that my draw would actually decrease as I became a better performer, but that's life.
The new song has been called "All Over Now" as I've been working on it, since that's the first line I wrote for it, which begins the chorus. I think that title is cheesy so don't be surprised if it changes. Or suggest a new one based on the lyrics (which are also not final.)
All Over Now (Title tentative)
I only wanted to make something better than myself
I never resisted being criticized
No I believed every word anyone has said
But some things are not meant to be analyzed
Chorus:
It's all over now
I've grown so tired of listening
To all the doubt
The fear so consuming I will never get out
I still have the choice
To ignore that voice inside my head that says
Whatever I do, it's not success -
-I've had enough of this!
With every glance new cracks, new flaws are exposed
We all carry a thousand mistakes
Someday this pandora's box will be closed
Until then, I'll do whatever it takes
I look to the past and the future to come
Relying on daydreams that I might have won
One day...
It's all over now
I've grown so tired of listening
To all the doubt
The fear so consuming I will never get out
I still have the choice
To kill that awful voice inside my head that says
Whatever I do, it's not success -
I'm too soft, I'm too hard
I'm too brave, I'm too scared
I'm trivial, I'm serious
Is anyone even hearing this?
I hear the absence of your cheers
Loud and clear
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Comments:
My god that recording may be existential.
I mean, I don't quite know what existential means, but I think there's a bunch of it on that tape.
![[User Picture]](http://p-userpic.livejournal.com/66931485/1050874) | | From: | unwoman |
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| Date: | March 28th, 2008 07:16 pm (UTC) |
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Hah, love it.
I know i already said this in regard to Blossoms, but i love that tone you're producing with the cello at the moment. So assured and rich.
| | From: | unwoman |
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| Date: | March 28th, 2008 07:16 pm (UTC) |
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Thank you so much!! It's always wonderful to hear from you.
Stupid peoples. You sound GREAT.
![[User Picture]](http://p-userpic.livejournal.com/70395026/383404) | | From: | buz |
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| Date: | March 28th, 2008 07:44 pm (UTC) |
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Did you hear my little song at the end of the recording?
| | From: | unwoman |
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| Date: | March 28th, 2008 07:48 pm (UTC) |
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Yes! :D
It cracked my ass up. Thank you for adding that.
![[User Picture]](http://p-userpic.livejournal.com/66278697/383404) | | From: | buz |
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| Date: | March 28th, 2008 07:51 pm (UTC) |
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![[User Picture]](http://p-userpic.livejournal.com/74535351/368496) | | From: | tadziu |
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| Date: | March 29th, 2008 04:49 am (UTC) |
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I have not heard your music for quite some time.
Wow, your singing improve 300%. Your voice is always beautiful, but now you have the one thing that is the most difficult to do: control.
I keep listening and listening to this song...can't get it out of my head!
| | From: | unwoman |
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| Date: | March 29th, 2008 05:33 am (UTC) |
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Thank you so much, this is so sweet to hear! I'm really glad you like it.
![[User Picture]](http://p-userpic.livejournal.com/52913005/9541050) | | From: | scifunk |
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| Date: | March 29th, 2008 04:57 am (UTC) |
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It's great. I'm surprised that five people are making that much noise in the background. I'm also surprised that people aren't flocking to your cello performances--I'm always sad that I miss what might be the last one, but I'm so far away now!
| | From: | unwoman |
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| Date: | March 29th, 2008 05:33 am (UTC) |
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Aw, that's sweet!
The people you hear are the people at the bar who were *not* there to see me -- the five who came to see me, and some other folks, were paying attention.
Perhaps the giggle was mine? Sometimes those things pop out of me.
I loved your new song, and for some reason it has been sticking in my brain since Thursday night. You achieved that effect by building the song with the kind of melody and lyrics that come for a 'short visit' but stay forever.
And I hear it as message of liberation, so of course it resonates with me (especially the idea that "I still have a choice to ignore the voice...") I love it!
It reinforces your thousands of successes, and the thousands to come.
Oh, Erica, how lovely song! I really wish to saw you playing live but... I live in Brazil, this is a bit impossible by now.
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